Rindu

There isn't a second of my day that I don't think about you.
My tears should have run dry by now.
But it hasn't.

I'm living my life, but every time i take a breath, i suffocate.

Why did I stay?

So he asked.
Why did I stay?
When I know there is no hope between us.
But I stayed.

I myself still unsure.
I know it will eventually end one day,
And yet, I chose to stay.

I chose to suffer myself.
I chose this.
By staying,
Going deeper and deeper into the relationship.
Loving him more and more each day.
Until one day, I have to leave him.

Am I really unsure?
Or I do know the answer.
But I refuse to say it out loud.
So my brain won't hear.
So the heart can lead me astray.

I stayed because,
I love you.
And I secretly hope that,
I could change your mind.
Even I know it is almost impossible.
Because, who am I to change your decision?
You are a man of your words.

I know you love me.
But you don't love me enough to choose me.
You know I love you.
But I don't love you enough to sacrifice my future.

Finally u gave up.
You can't take it anymore.
You can't make me change my mind, just like I can't make you change yours.
We both know what we want, and we can't have it.
You said, there is no point in staying anymore.
There is no point in fighting anymore.
There is nothing to fight for.
We both will get hurt much worse if we continue.

Thank you for giving up.
Because, if it was me,
I don't know if I have the will to do so.
Thank you for doing it for me.

You be good.
Remember,
You will live.
And,
I will survive.

Thank you for the moments.
Thank you for all the sweet memories.
And,
Sorry I interfere with your life.

So,

Why did I stay?

Because,

I rather love someone I can't have,

Then,

Be with someone I don't love.

This crazy relationship

Pernah tak you've been in a relationship, that you know will end? Either he who will end it, or you will end it. Pernah? Although u know it will end, but u stayed anyway. Pernah?

Usually people get into serious relationship, for one reason kan? To get married. To live their lives together. To be happy forever and ever.

But not this one particular relationship i know. Well, they both love each other so much. At least one side i know loves the other so much. But, under one circumstance, they cant have a happy ending for their love story.

It is too complicated to explain what and why. But, one thing for sure, if they ever to get married, only one side will be happy. The other have to pretend to be happy. Ape makna marriage if it is full of pretend? You have to suffer for the rest of your life just to be with the one that you love. Sanggup nak hidup macam tu? Kau dapat apa kau nak, tapi kau tak bahagia. Bole hidop dengan tak bahagia? Hari-hari makan hati. Hari2 fake a smile so that your loved one really believe u r happy to be with him.

So now here you are. Nak tinggalkan, tak sanggup. Tapi nak teruskan tak terdaya dah. You are in a relationship, yang setiap hari menunggu bila akan tamat. Tapi sepanjang hari-hari tu, you build more and more memories together. Your love grow deeper and deeper towards each other.

Even so, everyday u would secretly pray, for the day the two of you become one will finally come.

And only the two of you.

Susahnya nak bahagia

Dah lama tak update blog.
Rasa janggal pulak.
But I need to say what I need to say.

Susah nak bahagia.

These few month,
Too many heartbreaks.
Too many lost.
So little of the good times.

Then one day,
You came.
You came back.
Brought me hope.
Hope that I longed for.
That I have been waiting for all this while.
I was happy.
I was over the moon.
I can finally see the light.
I can see the glimpse of happiness in front of me.
That soon will be mine.

But I was wrong.
I got excited too early.
The happiness you brought was only for a short while.
And yet, I willingly let you hurt me.
Willingly let you played me.
I was torn. I was done.
I let you break me. Inside out.
I didn't fight.
Because I loved you too much.
Now I am here again.
In this mess.
A mess i created myself.

I want to run away.
But you chained me.
I want to be happy away from you.
But how can I when you are the reason for my smiles?
I want to hate you, I should hate you,
but I grew fond of you.
Each day.

I need to move on.
You are not for me.
Even if I am for you.

I am tired.
With all the dramas.
I just want my happiness.
Back.
Please.

I want you.
No one in between.

I just can't stay mad at you.

But I am glad our paths crossed.You made mE happy even for a short while.

Too afraid to fight the odds.

Or is it just something you said? Out of sympathy?

Percutian Yang Dinanti: Mabul-Kapalai-Bohey Dulang, Sabah -Underwater Video-

Hari tu cerita pung pang pung pang pasal holiday ke islands around Semporna sampai lupa nak share video. Haaaa, ni dia video nya. Enjoyla...

Selalu aku pergi holiday dengan kawan2, asyik wat video muke dorang je. Muke aku memang takde. Fokus kat dorang. Skang ni, kasi terbalik la.. Aku banyak selfie shot diri aku. Haha.. Sempena sesuai dengan tema lagu, Rescue by Yuna. Yang ditujukan khas buat diri sendiri.. Huhu. Deep.. deep..

Layankannn...

Pada yang tak baca previous post, we stayed at Arung Hayat when in Mabul. Budget resort yang bagi aku sangat selesa nak berbaloi dengan harga. And di Semporna, we stayed at Dragon Inn. Resort yang memang cantiklah luar dalam, no doubt. huhu..

Percutian Yang Dinanti : Pulau Mabul - Pulau Kapalai - Pulau Bohey Dulang

Secara personalnya, bercuti ke Pulau Mabul memang dah lama aku idam-idamkan. Sejak dari zaman IPG lagi. Memang aku dah lama berhasrat that one day, aku akan jejakkan kaki ke sana. Pulau yang banyak diperkatakan orang. Mempunyai underwater scenery yang sangat-sangat cantik yang mampu kalahkan Pulau Perhentian. I want to see it for myself. I want to experience it for myself. So, mid-February haritu aku gather my geng kaki jalan and luahkan hasrat dihatiku. Huhu. And Alhamdulillah, depa suma setuju nak gi. Hence, we picked the date, and it happen to be during  good friday holiday.

18-20 April 2014.

As always, aku lah yang kene rancang semua. haha. ticket flight, trip pakej etc. So sepanjang nak sampai ke 18th April tu, keje aku email resort, call sana call sini, carik pakej termurah. And in the end, Alhamdulillah, more or less I got what I want and am satisfied with it. Aku tak merungut. Aku suke handle bende2 gini. Sebab ni holiday aku. So bile aku buat seniri, aku rasa puas hati sebab aku dapat ape aku nak. Aku dapat ape yang aku idamkan dengan harga yang aku inginkan. Cuma terkilan sedikit dengan harga tiket flight lah. Sebab bajet memang tak lebih 300 return, but turn out to be 400++ return. Semuanya sebab lambat beli.

Untuk cost pakej ni pulak, actually aku tak amek pakej dengan resort yang kitorg stay. Perancangan awalnya memang nak amek pakej, which is about rm370-rm430 per pax inclusive of boat ride, snorkeling trip to 2-3 spots, accomodation and food for 3 days 2 nights. Tapi pakej tu mmg takdela snorkel sampai Kapalai or Bohey Dulang. Extra charge klu nak ke situ. Then aku diperkenalkan dengan seorang member kepada member ni yang posting dekat area Semporna. This guy memang best wa cakap lu. Pulau-pulau kat Semporna ni memang hujung janggut dia je. Haha. Baru duk situ tak sampai setahun tapi boleh sembang da macam expert pulau dah. Syukur lah aku ditemukan dengan orang yang betul untuk trip kali ni. So dengan dia lah aku banyak berurusan. Rasa macam menyusahkand dia pon ade jugak. hahahaha. Nasib lah labu.

So anyways, this guy, Omar, dia suggest sewa boat sahaja untuk sepanjang 3 days trip ni. Boat tu akan bawak ke Pulau Mabul where we gonna stay and also to snorkeling places. Dia jugaklah yang suggest pergi Bohey Dulang. Kalau dia tak cakap, memang aku tak akan tau pasal pulau Bohey Dulang nih sebab pulau ni memang tak banyak travel agent promote. So, sebabkan dia expert n dia banyak contact, dia tolong aku setelkan hal boat, and permit bagai. Keje aku, setelkan penginapan dekat Mabul and dekat Semporna. And also flight tix from Sarawak to Sabah. And also kumpulkan orang kampung for the trip. Alhamdulillah trip ni mendapat banyak sambutan, and total number of people yang join = 16!! Tak pernah aku handle group trip sebesar ini.. fuhhh fuhhh~!!! So total cost for the trip only exclusive of flight tix is around RM300 -ish.

So nak tau rentetan percutian aku? Meh aku cite satu per satu.

How to Handle Break Up. Menghadapi Putus Cinta.

Putus cinta tu sakit. Amat menyakitkan. Lagi-lagi bila hubungan tuh dah cecah lebih 5 tahun. Dah rancang masa depan bersama. Dah boleh bau dah nasi minyak tuh. Dah boleh bayang dah duduk atas pelamin sama-sama. Tapi percaturan Allah mengatasi segalanya kan. Kita hanya merancang, dia menentukan. cliche. I know. But that is the truth. Kite boleh bercinta la selama mana pon kita nak. Boleh rancang lah nak sehidup semati dengan dia. Tapi kalau Allah kata dia bukan, maka bukanlah. Walaupun selama bertahun tu ko cube melawan takdir, cube menstabilkan telur dihujung tanduk, kuasa Allah lebih hebat.

Dapat feel dah? Awesome tak intro aku? haha. OK, so this post here, gonna talk you guys through how to handle your break up. Well, you might disagree with me, but this is how I handle break up, and so far it is working out great. So, maybe if you find it hard to handle your break-up, lets give my way a try!

My Song Review - Alasan Untuk Bahagia by Asfan

Here is the lyrics

Seperti mentari kan hilang
Mengikut jejakku menghapus bayangmu
Teruslah ku membawa cinta
Jauh dariku jauh darimu
Dan tak bisaku mengerti
Semua terjadi harus begini

Kini yang tinggal hanya
Sisa-sisa kisah yang terindah
Dan hitam tiba membawa derita

Sejujurnya masih ada rasa cinta
Yang tak akan putus
Kerna alasanmu untukku bahagia
Seharusnya kau sedari
Separuh jiwaku akan mati
Yang tinggal hanya
Alasan untuk bahagia

And my review:

Another wedding highlights after such a long long long hibernation

Kisahnya, ni video highlights kawan aku kawen
Disember lepas.
Skang bulan Mac.
Haha. Video paling lama aku buat. Amek masa 3 bulan.
Sorry la Diha. Aku da explain kat ko kan.. Awal tahun haritu aku ade banyak masalah dan kekangan. Aku xmampu nak siapkan video ni dlm time constraint.

Jom Jom Order Photobook Murah giler RM5!

Okay, so here is the catch.

Pixajoy is holding a promotion. Not much time left. I already created and ordered mine. Tunggu masa je nak sampai rumah. Huhu. Now it is your turn. Cepat-cepat sebelom promo habes!

Ni contoh photobook yang aku da wat.. Hehe..Ni dalam bentuk e-flip book. Dah siap nanti, lebih kurang gini la rupa dia.. hoho..  Show off Japsss

http://www.pixajoy.com.my/sharer?u=/my-flipbook/JJ140301123/edf0c87fe5cbc7dc109e81dba4469653&b=PIXAJOY&f=email&c=67637&e=&sign=a1d00fa7738fc839e3e0ada2f62198c3

So,  interested?

Kalau interested, sila lah klik link di bawah:

http://www.pixajoy.com.my/mini-layflat-offer

and masukkan referrer code ni:

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then just follow the steps.. easy. senang gile. Aku buat xsampai 2jam da siap.. huhu

Abell Hilang

Harini genap 3 hari Abell hilang.
Rabu, Ein msg bagitau Abell tak balik rumah since Tuesday night. Malam tu dia balik, makan, then keluar balik. The next morning (Rabu), usually Abell would go to our neighbour's for breakfast. But he didn't show up. The neighbour, being concerned, went to our house to check up on Abell. Tapi dia takde.

Sampai harini.. Jumaat. He still hasn't come back yet. Ein da carik area kampung. No sign of him. Rumah jiran pon takde.

I'm just really really really sad right now.
Really really really sad

Pos kereta dari Semenanjung ke Sarawak

So, back in July, I was posted here. Mukah, Sarawak. Alhamdulillah, pencarian rumah sewa tak susah, first day sampai je Mukah terus dapat rumah sewa. Kebetulan sorang cikgu sekolah aku mencari geng sewa rumah. So for about 2 months aku pergi sekolah sama dengan dia, tumpang kereta dia la senang cite.

During that period, I was actually in dilemma whether to buy a new car or post a car from semenanjung. After a lot of thinking n discussing with family n friends, I decided to post the Iswara from home. Keta tu dok kat rumah mmg takde orang gune pon. Asalnya memang aku dah plan, kalau aku dapat posting semenanjung, mmg aku akan gune kereta tu jeh. Memang takkan beli keta baru. Cheapskate punye pasal kan. Haha.

So I surveyed the internet for the best shipping price. Kebanyakan company offer price of RM2500 from port Klang ke Sibu. Agak expensive for me. Then I found this one company, Rizstwo Trading, yang hs the cheapest offer which is RM2350. So tanpa lengah2, teros contact the boss himself and aturkan shipping. 

The shipping took 16 days. Dari port klang shipped to Kuching, then transported to Sibu by trailer. Alhamdulillah, semua barang2 dalam keta aku selamat. Takde yang hilang. Aku rasa la takde yg hilang. Tak tau la kot aku yg tak prasan keh... huhuhu... 

So kalau ade sesape interested to use their service, feel free to google the company

  Rizstwo Trading, 

or call teros number nih like i did.

 0123312565

kereta ku yg da selamat sampai ke Mukah.

barang2 yg de dalam keta. tak banyak mane pomm.. huhu

siap de ironing board lagi.. haha.. 

Sebenarnya boleh je nak amek pakej teros hantar ke Mukah. but then, extra charge la.. So better amek pakej sampai Sibu je then aku gi amek sniri kat Sibu. 

But haritu keta aku smp weekday n around 8pm, Aku plak keje the next day kan, so xley nak gi amek. So i had my friend yg dok di Sibu tolong amekkan. Sebabnya org trailer tu mmg drop keta tepi jalan je n xde mcm warehouse khas untuk letak kereta pon. So car owner atau wakil mmg kene ade ditempat yg dijanjikan semasa trailer tu sampai. 

Surat Untuk Abell

This letter was written days before I left for Sarawak. Guessed I forgot to published it. So here goes. 

Kehadapan kucing kesayanganku Abell,

 I know you won't read this, but I need to let this out. No one else do understand how I feel, so sharing this with them will be pointless. Better off i write it here, so when i miss you i can read this letter.

 I'll be leaving you soon my darling. I'm going to Sarawak, and you, i dont know where will you be. Will you be in Rembau or Muadzam or Marang. Things will be hard my baby. No one really wants to take care of you. I wish i cud bring i with me, but i cant at the moment. I need to settle down first.

Bell, be strong my boy. Jangan nakal please. Kalau bell stay kat rembau, dengar cakap ibu, dgr ckp abah. Jgn kencing berak dlm rumah. Diaorg tak suka. Abell berak la kat luar eh. Abell kene blaja. Abel kan da besa. Da setahun da sayang. Sama jugak kalau abell stay kt muadzam or marang. Abell kene biasekan diri.

Lepas ni mommy xde nak sikatkan abell. Mommy xde nak mndikan abell. Mommy xde nak pelok abell sblom tido. Mommy xde nak sapu ubat dekat hidung abell. Mommy xde nak lap luka abell yang xpernah kering tu. Abell xboleh baring atas perot mommy lagi. Abell xboleh lompat duduk atas peha time mommy online lg. Harap2 siapa yg jaga abell lepas ni boleh mnjakan abell mcm mana mommy manjakan abell.

Abell, jangan lari. Jangan mati. If you xstay kat rembau, mungkin lepas ni susah sikit kite nak jumpe. Abell jgn lupe mommy tau sayang. Kalau cuti pon, xkan papa nak bawak abell dtg rembau kan? Jauh tu. Do u know what is my worst nightmare? That i will lose you. That i wont see you anymore. Thinking abt the possibilities mmg menyedihkan.

Abell tau tak, out of all the human beings yg ade dkt muka bumi ni yg mommy sayang, mommy lagi sedih nak tinggalkan abell. Why? Because dengan manusia kita masih boleh contact walaupun jauh. Mungkin tak bole hari2 tapi at least once a week. Tapi dengan abell, nak contact mcm mana?? Abell bkn bole cakap. Bukn ade skype, facebook, whatsapp!

I hope u will do fine without me. Please don't forget me coz i wont forget u. You will always be my rainbow after the rain. I love u my baby.

Wedding Videographer Semenanjung dan Sarawak

Lama dah aku tak promote bisnes aku kat sini. Meh sini nak promote balik.

Selama ni menyepi sebab, hidup dalam "what ifs". Yela, lepas habis belajar bulan november 2012, graduan IPG digantung tak bertali. Tak tahu bile nak posting. So, susah bagi aku untuk amek job wedding. Takut nnt, amek job wedding, tibe2 dpt tau posting n kat sabah sarawak plak. Tak ke naya. So I had to turn down a few wedding jobs la for this past 7 months.

Sekarang aku da dapat posting. Jadi cikgu di SARAWAK. lebih specific, Mukah. Lepas drafting and budgetting sorang2, aku rasa part time job aku as wedding videographer boleh diteruskan. But, kalau di Semenanjung, maybe time cuti sekolah sahaja boleh. And kalau ade clients from Sarawak mahukan perkhidmatan akazami videography ni, boleh la isi form kat website saya.. hehehehe... Mane tau rezeki dapat 1st customer from Sarawak. Dulu masa mule2 start bisnes ade client from Kapit, tapi I had to reject sebab tarikh dia clash dengan one client from Semenanjung. wuuuuu... xde rezeki.

So kepada bride to be and groom to be out there, yang mencari pakej kahwin videography yang murah sangat2, harga berpatutan, meh la usha2 website akazami videography http://akazami.yolasite.com/ untuk keterangan lanjut mcm harga pakej and video2 wedding yang pernah amek pakej dengan saya.

Order form juga bole didapati di website itu, klik saja sinii http://akazami.yolasite.com/contact-us.php


Happy booking guys :)

Let's pray for our muslim brothers and sisters everywhere.

Doa senjata mukmin. 

Aku sedih la. sedih tengok dunia macam ni. Di Malaysia perang cyber. Ramai keyboard warriors dilahirkan hari-hari. Orang dibawah tak suka orang di atas. Orang sebelah benci orang belakang. Sekali sekala berlaku pergelutan berdarah di jalan.

Di Syria? Di Palestine? Mereka berperang untuk kemanusiaan. Untuk agama. Innocents die every day. Innocent men, women, even children!

Dan akan aku dengar suara sumbang katak yang berkata  "Alah, diorang ni berperang, jiran-jiran negara Arab tu pon bukan nak tolong. Kita pulak beria nak tolong."

Mereka Islam. Kita Islam. Jangan pikir jiran dia xnak tolong, lepastu perlekehkan kita yang jauh ni pulak nak tolong. Salah tolong saudara-saudara Islam kita?

Tolong. Tolong bagaimana? Tak mampu nak berjuang sekali dengan mereka di sana, berjuanglah di sini. Sebarkan khabar tentang mereka. Biar ramai tahu.  Doakan sengsara mereka akan berakhir tidak lama lagi. Jangan harapkan berita di tv saja. Berita di tv padat dengan aktivti-aktiviti di negara kita, tiada ruang untuk menceritakan apa yang terjadi di sana.

Kenapa aku macam ni malam ni? Sebab aku baru lepas tengok video Mr.Bie. Ramai kenal Mr. Bie kan? tak perlu intro panjang tentang beliau. Cukup sekadar tau dia selalu buat parodi lagu2 mainstream jadi lagu islamik/dakwah.

Selama ni aku banyak baca blog2 saja tentang apa yang terjadi di sana. Kali ni Mr. Bie siap compilekan footage2 di sana lagi.

Siapa yang tengok pasti sedih. Pasti mengalir air mata. Doakan mereka. Doakan mereka.

Kisah Seorang Guru Ganti

Assalamualaikum. lama rasanya aku tak tulis entry. Memang dah lama hajat nak buat satu entri pasal pengalaman jadi guru ganti ni, tapi nak tunggu sampai bebetul tamat kontrak. Bila kontrak dah tamat 23 May haritu, perasaan malas update pulang menyerang diri. Hehe. So only today rasa bersemangat skit nak update, so, jom baca lah liku2 kehidupan aku sebagai seorang guru ganti.

Kepada yang tak tau, sehingga ke harini, aku dan rakan2 sebatch aku PISMP 2009 masih lagi menanti pengumuman posting daripada orang atasan. Sudah 6 bulan kami menunggu, bayang2 macam nampak, tapi kejap je. Pastu dia hilang balik. Masa awal tahun haritu, ade tergerak hati nak mohon guru ganti, but dengar cerita dalam bulan Januari or Februari ade posting. So tak jadilah nak apply. Tup2, sampai tarikh yg dinyatakan, bukanlah posting pon, hanya interim. Itu pon tak semua orang dapat. Interim dibuka kepada sekolah SJKC dan SJKT kerana dikatakan sekolah2 ini kekurangan guru. Dan mereka yg dapat interim ni majoritinya chinese and indians, and a few malays and major PAI. Then tak lama lepas tu a few Malays and Bumiputera guru pelatih pulak dapat interim ke sekolah2 di sabah sarawak, and a few states in peninsular. Sekolah-sekolah yang mereka dapat interim ni kebanyakannya adalah sekolah kebangsaan agama. So, bila aku tengok dorang interim sikit-sikit macam ni, aku dapat rasakan, harapan untuk posting tu lambat lagi... posting tak akan muncul sebelum pilihanraya. Aku pon nekadla carik keje. Sebab masa tu dah 3 bulan lebih duduk rumah tak buat ape kan. Pening kepala jugakla hari-hari bangun lambat, tido lambat.

Percutian Saya Ke Bukit Tinggi, Indonesia. PART 2

Assalamualaikum readers! and Salam Hari Pekerja

Haha. Sorry lama gila korang tunggu aku update untuk Part 2 kan. Maaf bebanyok. Teacher busy la dengan hal2 di sekolah.. Al-maklumla, teacher ni kan orang penting.. hahaha... Nasib baik cuti harini.. dapat la teacher update blog teacher yang gah ni. hahahhahahahahahha...

Ok sambung dari Part 1.. Sebenarnya da ingat2 lupa je ape yang jadi... Dah sebulan lebih kot!!

Day 2

The hotel provided us with breakfast. Kami makan. rehat2 dulu, then berjalan menuju ke Pasar Atas. Pasar Atas is not far from our hotel. walking distance dalam 5-10 mins. Route menuju ke PA kene naik tangga, atau orang sana panggil Jenjang 40. 40 maybe because ade 40 steps kot. hehe. On the way naik tu, abah and ibu stop la dekat kedai jual silver jewelries, and cincin pelbagai jenis batu. Lama gilo tunggu abah pilih cincin idaman dia!

Percutian Saya Ke Bukit Tinggi, Indonesia. PART 1

Tajuk ada macam karangan budak darjah 5 tak? Haha. Inilah penangan orang baru jadi guru ganti selama 8 hari. Haha. Yes, for those who didn't know, saya sekarang menjadi guru ganti di sebuah sekolah berdekatan dengan rumah sementara menunggu panggilan posting. Maybe there will be another entry for that. This entry nak cite pasal percutian sahaja. No work is allowed. Hehe

Introduction

Holiday kali ni, kami pergi berempat sahaja. Ibu, Abah, aku and my cousin Yan. It was 5 days 4 nights trip. Berpuas hati. Tapi macam tak cukup hari and duit nak shopping. Haha. Tapi ok la, sebab aku rasa, lagi lama aku dok sana, makin kopak aku. Seriously, aku macam rambang mata kat sana. Tickets da start booked since November/December 2012. Pergi-balik was about RM300+. So still affordable. Masa tu AirAsia tengah buat sale. Ibu was online, dia cek tickets, immediately tny aku, "Aina, nak g bukit tinggi tak?". I immediately said yes. Masa tu tak pikir pon dalam account ada berapa. Haha. Sampai date almost nak pergi, baru start buat kira-kira duit dalam account. Alhamdulillah, tolak duit tiket and belanja shopping pon, I still have extras to survive my life. haha. Anyway, untuk trip kali ni, kami pergi sendiri without agent, so dpt save more la kat situ.

Pengalaman Program Penilaian Khas PISMP 09 di Putrajaya

Fuh. lama betul tak update blog. Ok, xnak buat ayat cliche, " dah bersawang blog aku" sebab aku xnampak pon sawangnye kat mana. amende intro aku macam ^%$#@ je nih..

So dipendekkan cite, di malam yang mulia ini aku nak cite pengalaman aku pergi program Penilaian Khas di Putrajaya pada 21 Mac yang lalu. Kepada yang tak tau, program Penilaian Khas ini diadakan untuk pengesahan jawatan DG 41. Dan hanya yang terpilih saje layak penilaian khas ni, iaitu mereka yang cemerlang peperiksaan dan praktikal. ehem.ehem.ehem. Bagi mereka yang kurang bernasib baik, harus melalui interview. Ok, so that's a lil bit overview of what Pen.Khas is.

Resepi : Grilled Cheese Sandwich

Sejak duduk rumah ni. Jarang sangat masak nye. Bukan pe, dok ngan ibu. Ibu memang jarang makan skang. Diet la kononnye. Breakfast kat skola, pastu balik umah mane makan dah. Takkan aku nak masak untuk diri aku sorang. Soo, membazir masa n tenaga. Aku bukan jenis yang suke melakukan pembaziran bodoh seperti itu. Wah. kasarnya bahasa kau dik non! Haha. Jadinya, dapur memang jarang berasap.